Today is Day 30.
What happened?
Work. Work happened. I have been super busy and with overtime required I didn't have a whole lot of time and I also spaced it a few times to blog. Eventually I just stopped and it suddenly was day 28, so I decided to just wait until the end and give my summary of the days. I won't list them here, however I will do some highlights of a few days. I will be posting my results tomorrow.
I've posted the day 15 I had, and so I'll be summarizing from day 16 to 30.
This is when I sort of stopped keeping track of what I ate. Not that I went off plan, it just got so repetitive and I was busy, so I just kept doing my thing.
Breakfasts mostly consisted of homefries/fried eggs and fritattas, sometimes just fruit and a larabar.
Lunches/dinners were prepped on my days off and enjoyed for both lunch and dinner. I tried the chicken meatballs, the shepherd's pie, curry chicken, I attempted to eat out one day-it's amazing when you order it differently how much can go wrong- and the chicken salad.
Whatever you choose from these recipes...they are all good. Not one that I've made has turned out gross or weird or just not good. They are ALL wonderful. Honestly. SO GOOD. I've raved about it to my coworkers and there is one where she is super intrigued and feels sorry for me, but honestly it's not too bad.
However...
There were some days I struggled and I was mad and frustrated and wanted to break. Like the time I was visiting my sisters around day 20/21. We did this wonderful painting class and it was so much fun and they were hungry afterward and there was a lovely French shop a few doors down they wanted to stop in to. They had Macrons. *insert rainbow eyed emoji* I had found them. After many bakery stop ins and inquiries about macrons, here it was, a French shop with huge macrons. I was mad. Infuriated. I couldn't believe that after ALL THIS TIME, there they were. When I couldn't have them. I wasn't outwardly showing much at first, because I knew I wasn't going to pick them up. I knew I wouldn't buy any. Saving them would be detrimental, and this shop will always be there and so I didn't feel the need to break this because of those. But I was frustrated about missing the opportunity. I contemplated taking a break, but the whole 30 book about taking those breaks entered my mind and I decided it wasn't worth it. So I just wandered around the shop while everyone else bought something to eat.
There was another time, shortly afterward, where there was a big emotional day. Day 23. A few days after that macron debacle, it had come time to put our dog down. Our goofy, doopy, funny looking, suffering in pain bassett hound. My husband had finally found a Saturday where he could take her to Emporia and lay her to rest in the same field as he placed her sister years and years ago.
That. was difficult. Even worse was to explain why she couldn't smell the flowers after we buried her to my daughter. She was probably more upset that I was losing it than actually losing the dog. She's a tough cookie.
I was actually having irrational thoughts after leaving that town, it was hard to get through.
I really wanted to get ice cream. Another one of those, "I'm not here that often and this is always a treat" sort of situations, and especially with the loss, I was struggling not to delve into comfort food. I did get a burger though, which was ok. They forgot the mustard.
It's really not worth it to eat out. There's not much on plan foods there. Just a tip.
After all those experiences, I went back to work and normal life and I was able to keep my strength and move forward. I find I am slowly disconnecting from going to food for comfort, boredom, etc.
Lately I feel like I've been wanting the things I've been missing out on, namely sweets and baked goods.
Today doesn't feel like the end. Due to the fact that I want those things like cookies and cakes and everything my body doesn't need, I will be continuing this journey until I no longer feel that need to indulge. I will probably take a break for holidays, but I will do it with control, and really contemplate if it is worth it to have it before indulging. I'm not promising daily blogs, however I can commit to weekly at least. I will be notating anything note worthy about the days, especially how I feel and if I had any cravings or even if I caved. Because I stayed strong during the whole 30, I will have to re-commit to the next month and keep that mindset of the goal I want to reach. I feel if I don't set a goal and keep my mindset, I will go off plan and I'll give up. I need to remain strong. I will figure it out and then post it in the results post tomorrow.
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